Author Topic: Sexual Dimorphism Preferences  (Read 4871 times)

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Re: Sexual Dimorphism Preferences
« Reply #120 on: March 19, 2024, 08:58:37 am »
I understand, and would like to sincerely apologize for letting you down. I admit I was still somewhat of a Eurocentrist/False Leftist when I first joined, believing that some rightist/"White" False Leftist "truther" types could simply be educated into joining our cause, so I probably wasted some time with that. It took some time for me to decolonize myself. Also, now that I am no longer in school, I am looking to eventually save up money so that I can quit my job and pursue activism full time. I would like to do IRL activism, and have given up the blogging project.

I have realized that I am simply not as independent as I thought I was, and was still too attached to and dependent on my mother. It will take some time for me to learn to be independent and cultivate the necessary self-discipline for activism.

I have also come to the conclusion that instead of "rebelling" against my parents out of some teenage angst, it is wiser to acknowledge their shortcomings but also appreciate their noble characteristics. I feel that I have an idealized image of them (particularly my mother from when I was young, as she was indeed affectionate to me when I was a child, but also my father, who genuinely wanted me to be a noble person), and that they sincerely tried to live up to this image, but that they lacked the Aryan blood necessary to become full fledged activists and hence ended up reproducing and creating a family. Of course, they should be ruthlessly hammered for their faults, but it should be viewed from the perspective of them failing to live up to the idealized image.

I thought living separate from them would inculcate some self discipline in me (since I have a job now) but it is in fact only making things worse.
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Re: Sexual Dimorphism Preferences
« Reply #121 on: March 20, 2024, 10:30:24 pm »
Now that I think of it, my mother was always the ideal standard of a woman that I looked for in a partner (prior to knowing that she is not perfect). It also helps that she has a somewhat Aryan phenotype (I'd say above average tbh). This is also why the human beauty page immediately resonated with me immediately: I was simply seeing the phenotype of my mother.
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